Unfortunately, my baby of 9 years passed away early this morning. He should have lived much longer, since he was only 10, but he contracted an autoimmune disease in which the immune system attacks the red blood cells. We had taken him to the vet Wednesday, 4/19/2017, because he was so unlike himself, only to find his rbc was low. They started him on amoxicillin(for any potential infection) and prednisone(to suppress the immune system in hope of bringing back up his blood cell count). We returned to the vet Friday, 4/21/2017, only to find that it had still gotten worse, even with the medication. The vet said he probably wouldn't live much longer, and it was already too late to find a specialist that could help. We could try doubling his dose of the prednisone, but it may not do much, was what our vet told us. But we tried it anyway, as a last ditch effort to save him, but it didn't. He died early this morning, while I was asleep. My guess would be some time after 6:00 AM, since he was still a little warm when I woke up at 7:20.
Rest in Peace, baby boy. I hope you know I've always loved you more than anything. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't take you outside more, or cuddle you more, or feed you more of the people food that you like. I'm sorry for any time I was mad or upset, and I let my frustration slip out and effect you. I'm sorry for all the time I wasn't home or didn't give you the attention you deserved. You were such a good dog, and deserved better than anything I could have ever provided for you. And I'm sorry, most of all, that I wasn't awake to help you during your final moments. I wish there was so much more I could have done, and I couldn't, and I'm so sorry for that. I'm sorry that we didn't get you to the vet sooner, maybe if we had, we could have treated it, and you would still be with me. I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry, Buddy.